O Lord when the wind does blow
Let me remember You
Uvo tidbakun
When arranging threatens to overwhelm, when the phone rings and the notifications ding and the children cry and the soup boils over
Let me stick to You
Uvo tidbakun
When fear strikes and my heart beats wildly and my whole body shakes in terror
Let me remember You
Uvo tidbakun
When I relive an incident and say to myself: you are such an idiot; when I am caught in a cycle of self-aggression and self abandonment,
Let me stick to You
Uvo tidbakun
When I am filled with irritation and rage with no understanding and no outlet, when I suffer the nauseating dissonance of stuffing it all down
Let me remember You
Uvo tidbakun
When my belly sinks with hurt and shame, when I feel that I do not matter,
Let me stick to You.
Uvo tidbakun.
When I feel the ache of loneliness and exclusion, of not belonging anywhere in this universe of Yours
Let me remember You
Uvo tidbakun
When I fall into the pit of despair, when life feels impossible to live
Let me stick with You.
Uvo Tidbakun.
When evil and cruelty are all I can see; when I am faithless and do not believe in Your love,
Let me remember You
Uvo tidbakun.
Let me remember You
And know that
Even in those moments
Precisely in those moments
I have access to You
To the peace and love and space
That are You, to the rest
That is You; I can rest here now
And know You are holding me
It is not that You save me,
But that, remembering You,
Sticking with You,
Staying, returning, staying
I save myself
Again and again
Uvo Tidbakun.
O Lord, please
Give me the strength to
Stay with You through the flood
Of my humanity.
